Inner battle with decision making..

 During my childhood and teenage years, my mother often contradicted herself in what she communicated to me. She would say that I didn't need a man or anyone else, but then she would follow up with comments suggesting I wouldn't be able to make it on my own or achieve certain things. I've come to realize how much these conflicting messages have affected my adult mindset. Recently, I've noticed that making decisions has become increasingly challenging for me. There are days when I find it hard to leave my room, and I end up second-guessing every question or option I face. This has led to feelings of shame regarding my behavior, as it is clearly impacting my everyday life. After looking into my mother's contradictory statements, it became clear that they significantly contribute to my current difficulties in decision-making. I find myself in a constant struggle between wanting to be confident and battling my self-doubt.