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Chose a good one to dodge..

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Around 13 years ago, I began living with a guy whose roommate was incarcerated. When the roommate was released, he came to the apartment to collect his belongings that my ex had set aside for him, and that was our first encounter. After some time, I managed to leave that situation, and about 10 years later, I started communicating with the roommate, which quickly turned into some passionate one-night stands. We probably met a few times each year for several years. It’s been about 5 or 6 years since we last hooked up, a decision I made because, despite his attempts to reach out, I just didn’t feel right about it. It was strange since he is quite attractive, very passionate, and enjoys continuing intimacy after climax, but I sensed he was becoming possessive and uneasy about anyone else being around me. It felt like he wanted me to allow him to take control, but I wasn’t willing to do that. The last time he came over unexpectedly, I was talking with my son’s friend in the kitchen. When I...
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Tough Times

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 It's been quite some time since I've been able to sit and actually express the way I've been feeling lately and how it's impacted my ability to move along.  Decisions are my biggest challenge.  Half the time I feel like I don't know where I'm going or when.  I'll sit around all damn day before I get up and start getting anything done.  The symptoms of whatever it is I'm experiencing are so much worse when my children are around.  They really don't know and I don't expect them to know the type of chaos that presents itself in my mind. My daughter will stand next to me and relentlessly ask me the same thing again and again.  She doesn't take being told no very well. She's very persistent and she tries the "whoa is me" whining, which in turn only pisses me off.  For instance she will say "well I was going to ask you but I know you'll just say no" or "fine, if you don't let me then I'm going to run in the...
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I'm lucky..

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 I am thankful for my job. I'm so lucky. To be continued....
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Impatient for what?

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"I can’t wait to turn 18," the kid from next door exclaimed. In reply, I questioned whether he understood what lay ahead. He paused for a moment before admitting, "Aside from the casino, I’m not really sure." I responded, "It’s death." Death is the inevitable conclusion we all face in the end. Regardless of our pursuits, we cannot escape death. If more individuals reflected on this reality, would it encourage them to take life at a more leisurely pace instead of rushing toward their goals? I ponder what it would take for the younger generation to slow down and appreciate the beauty that exists in everyone, everywhere, if only we allow ourselves to recognize it.  The only way to instigate change is through consistent practice. We acquire knowledge every day, but the key to truly internalizing and expressing what we learn lies in diligent study. After a week or two of adjusting to a new job that demands a good night's sleep before rising early five days ...
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