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It's a DuBarr Thing

Pronounced doo-bar. The only two sure things about life are time and death. I'm about 4 months shy of age 40 and I totally understand when they say "life is too short". There's a big part of me that has become noticeably bitter. The intent of this blog is to be more like a journal that I can vent to and let my frustrations out. Rather than ruin a good conversation with my negativity, I can create better experiences when I sort thoughts in writing. I just want to be happy!

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- May 14, 2025

Some people will drive you to your death but then mourn when you're gone.. what a strange world we live in.. ass backwards

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Sit on the edge or jump..

- March 15, 2025

Sometimes my heart bleeds over my good judgement causing me to continuously make decisions similar to all the others, always leaving me at square one. I've been keeping a journal since I was 14 years old and when I go back in them to read I get to wondering about myself, and if I'll ever make the jump or if I'm going to continue hanging off the edge. Something about the edge is spontaneous and fun but it only lasts for a minute per day. The thing that seems to set me back is the view. From the edge the view is always familiar which is more than most people can handle. There is fear behind the jump because there's no telling where I'll land. I know that I don't want to sit on a ledge waiting, wondering, and worrying. Even if jumping doesn't land me right where I want to be, it's probably where I need to be to get where I'm meant to be.

Listen and Silent contain the same letters.

- February 12, 2025

The best way to start a conversation with someone is by listening to them. If you want to talk to someone be sure you've heard them.

I'm doin a-okay

- March 28, 2025

Lately I've been really trying to follow Mel with her Let Them Theory. I'm going to buy that book. I already get the idea of it but I still like to read into the way others think of and tell a story. I'm aware that I look for aspects of myself in others and critique them. What confuses me is that it's me in the past I seek and then bitch about. There are so many parts of my past that I truly wish I could go back and change. It makes me wonder if that's the reason I can't move on to a better phase. Personally I keep saying that my life will be less chaotic once I have a vehicle on the road. Maybe it won't though. There are internal feelings that vary in favor of buying a car or not. I really need a vehicle in case of emergencies with one of my children. It's been 4 years that I've struggled getting them places they needed to be and it's the worst feeling in the world knowing your child needs something like the doctor or dentist though having...